dENGki Sesangat............

Aku mmg hantu 'pengdengki'


Dr kecik sampai gemok gedempol skrg...


Totally terible...Tapi naper susah nak ubah.......... hehehehe...


List of MY TERRIBLE 'P.H.D a.k.a Perangai Hasad Dengki'

1) sgt2 jeles org yg wat bnda2 baik.....esp mcm rajin solat sunat, bc quran, brsedekah, baik kat parents...last2 sbb dengki dgn org baik2 ne...i wanna try to do the same thing....so that i will get same rewards as them.... ptt truskn x plan ne? hehehe

2) extrovert, friendly n happy go lucky person... For me, this type of person are managing their life very well even there are some hard time too... could smile when your heart are in pain...make others smile even you are the who hurt so much...for me, they have some clean heart...think positively....Allah's gift for them

3) Active Blogger..kekekeke...i wondering how can they totally can manage their blog in their busy life....or i am just really teribble person get jealous with this...hehehehehe

Aku taknak Jadi Dewasa...

Kalu aku dh dewasa....

Aku akan khlgn something yg sgt brharga dlm hidup aku....

MY FANTASY WORLD....

Aku bnr2 xmau trima realiti dunia yg mnyakitkan...

Sebab mncuba dunia dewasa la...aku bnyak melakukan slh....mmg slh tu bnyak mngajar kita...

tapi knyataan sgt mnyakitkan....sangat menjengkelkan...

kalau org tya aku...sape ak plg bnci dlm dunia ni.....JWPNNYA ADLH DIRI AKU SNDRI...

fuhhhhhhhh.......(swipe...swipe...)

fuhh.... fuhh...

bnyaknye habuk...

malas btl cik mek ni.....

bkn ape...

too mNY THINGS TOO SAY

but dont know which one should be written first.......

few weeks ago...

just watching SECRET GARDEN....

totally absorbed by that story...

the ost song are the best...daebak....

miss it.....badly.....

Aku suka alam fantasi

alam fantasi ku

alam ciptaan aku sendiri

tentang bagaimana harus aku jalani hidup ini dan peristiwa-peristiwa penting yang penting

aku bahagia dengan alam fantasi aku

meskipun aku cuma bermimpi

tapi mimpi itu yang menjaga aku dari hanyut dengan keasyikan dunia

Namun usia tak pernah terlupa utk meningkat

Lalu,

ku rasakan ku harus tinggalkan mimpi itu

ternyata langkah ku salah

tersalah jalan yang ku pilih

dan tersilap menilai seorang

ku sangkakan dia yang kan bawa ku cahaya realiti dunia

ternyata hanya makhluk yang pentingka diri

insan yang berlagak mengetahui semuanya tentang dunia

tapi rupanya hanya penipu besar dunia

ku tertinggal dalam kegelapan

meskipun aku dalam cahaya

kegelapan itu sentiasa bersama aku

aku cuba kembali ke alam fantasi itu

namun

aku gagal

alam fantasi aku dicemari kejahatan realiti yang aku lakukan

aku sentiasa dibayangi dosa silam

yang membuat aku sudah putus harapan terhadap dunia realiti

bahkan, alam fantasiku turut membenci aku

aku benci diriku sendiri

mereka tidak tahu

Ya Allah, terimalah hambaMu yang lemah ini...tiada arah yang ku tuju melainkan padaMU

BENCIKAN DIRI

Aku yang bencikan diri sendiri

tak perlu sesiapa pun untuk memebenci diri ku

andainya ada

aku memahaminya

dan aku memaafkan

dan aku jua memohon maaf

kekhilafan diri ini teramat besar

Dan kini

sisa hidupku sebelum ditarik nyawa olehNya

adalah hukuman aku...

Aku yang bencikan diri sendiri

Takkan mungkin akan bahagia...

Aku harus redha

aku harus tabah...

Ya Allah, ampunkan dirir hambaMu yang lemah ini....

aku benar- benar hambaMu yang lemah............................

Aku Tidak Akan Pernah Berhenti Mencintai Kamu.....

Just watching the las t episode of Cinta Dan Anugerah

Part ini paling best bagi aku... hehehe... citer ne aku tgk skip2 ajer..

malas kok mau nengok sumenya...244 episode bukan 

sedikit kok...penat bangat saya nnti.. hehehe tertiru cara cakap pula

Tapi ak agak sangsi dgn kata2 yang diluahkan oleh watak Reza...

"Aku Tidak Akan Pernah Berhenti Mencintai Kamu....."

Mungkin ke cinta sesama manusia begini wujud...

mungkin ada tapi Expression of the Love yang makin kurang..

Bila usia semakin meningkat....

semua kemanisan di awal percintaan..

tak pulak meningkat2....

adakah ini lumrah or manusia sendiri yang pilih jalan ini...

Hanya seorang saja idola yang aku kagum dalam bab percintaan...

Nabi Muhammmad S.A.W..

Percintaan Dengan Maha Pencipta, ALLAH S.W.T

Percintaan dengan Isteri2nya...

Percintaan terhadap umatnya..

Kasih sayang DAN cinta baginda benar2 tak pernah berhenti...

Baginda tidak pernah mengabaikan isteri2nya...

kerna membahagiakan isteri adalah tanggungjawab suami..

melaksanakan tanggungjawab terhadap isteri pun dikira ibadat...

Apa yang dikisah oleh Aisyah A.S tentang peribadi Baginda...

cukup mengharukan hati...

betapa romantisnya baginda..

betapa indahnya baginda sebagai seorang suami...

FEW THINGS THAT ANNOYED ME LATELY

IT IS NOT EASY TO SATISFY EVERYONE..BUT IT WILL BE MORE COMPLICATED WHEN WE OURSELVES DO NOT SATISFY WHAT WE HAVE DONE BEFORE..IT IS YOUR OWN WORK...WHY YOU CANT BE SATISFIED AND ACCEPT THAT IS YOU?

IT IS SIMPLE BECAUSE YOU DO NOT DID IT WELL. AND THE RESULT REALLY DISSAPOINTING..SO WHO WILL BE BLAMED? PEOPLE TENDS TO ASK ALLAH WHY THEY HAVE TO FACE THIS AND THIS?

BUT, THEY DO NOT A SECOND THINK WHAT ARE THEIR FAULT... ALLAH TEST US WHAT WE ABLE TO BEAR OR ALLAH WANTS SHOW US THE TRUTH... I AM TALKING ABOUT MYSELF.. BEFORE THIS, I MIGHT BE NOT SPEAK UP MY THOUGHT BUT I KEEP SILENTLY COMMENTING OTHER PEOPLE.... IN THE END, ALLAH SHOWS ME THW TRUTH... ONE DAY, AT A BUS STAND, THERE WERE FEW SMALL KIDS SELLING WHILE BEGGING.... I SILENLT IN MY HEART... HOW CRUEL THEIR PARENTS FOR NOT SEND THEM TO SCHOOL... WHEN THEY COME NEAR MY FRIEND,MY FRIEND WANTED TO GIVE MONEY... THEY CHILD SO IMPATIENT AND KEEP LOOKING TO MY FRIEND'S PURSE... I FELT SO IRRITATING WITH HER ACT.... I STARTED THINK WHY YOU SHOULD BEG? THERE ARE MANY WORK TO DO...YOU'RE HEALTHY AT LEAST....THAT WERE MY THOUGHT AT THAT TIME...

FEW HOURS LATER.. IWENT TO MUSOLLA TO PRAY, I PUT MY BAG AT THE BACK...WHILE PRAYING I HEARD LIKE A BAG WAS OPENED...BUT I IGNORED IT BUT I DID FEEL UNEASY...I STOPPED MY PRAYER AND CHECK MY BAG...MY PURSE WAS GONE... THE TWO WOMEN THAT COME IN AFTER ME ALREADY GONE..I BELIEVED IT WERE THEM BECAUSE THERE ARE NO OTHER EXCEPT THEM...OTHER WOMEN WERE PRAYED AND THEY STAND NEXT TO ME.... I CRIED HEAVILY...ONE YOUNG LADY THERE COME TO ME AND TRIED TO CALM ME DOWN... SHE ALSO USED TO BE VICTIM THERE WHILE SHE STILL STUDENT NEARBY... SHE GAVE ME TEN RINGGIT..I REFUSED AND SHE KEPT INSISTED IT... I THANKFULLY ACCEPTED IT FINALLY... SUDDENLY I REMMEBERED THE CHILD BEGGAR... NOW I AM THE BEGGAR TOO...

I REALISED THIS IS WHAT ALLAH WANT TO SHOW ME... NOT EVERYONE IS LUCKY TO HAVE COMFATABLE LIFE... AS THE ONE WHO IS LUCKY....HELP OTHER AND STOP SAY BAD THING TO OTHER EVEN SILENTLY.. ONLY ALLAH IS ALMIGHTY... HE KNOW WHAT WE ARE DOING, WHAT WE ABLE TO DO AND WHAT WE HAVE DONE

ALWAYS ASK FOR ALLAH'S FORGIVENESS...