Pari-pari malam

'today might be not my bright day but it is still my lovely day'

~~~my own quote heheheh~~~

*termenung kejap...cr idea* ah haa actually i am intend to write about:

 

"PLEASE STOP COMPARING YOURSELF WITH OTHER BUT IT DOESNT MEAN U JUST NEED TO RELAX WHILE OTHERS MOVE ON"

 

al kisahnya... smlm aku stay up till 1 am for studying...why???

because i am having test this morning...errmmm goood student right hehehehe

di kala teman berjinak tidur... ak brtukar mnjadi pari-pari malam....tekun mendaki anak tangga kejayaan (kejayaan la sgt huhhu)

tapi sebenarya i am a loser....yelah bebe study last minute kot.... mula la pkr bukan...pndg kanan kiri...

walaupn aku menjadi pari-pari mlm itu....tapi ak bkn ader kuasa sakti yg blh buat ak pandai hehehe

why aku gelar diri pari-pari malam dan entri ini pn tajuk macam tu??

 

sebabnya.... aku punya sukalah heheheh

mengarut-marut je aku ne

 

masa aku study malam tu...banyak aku fikir...

kenapa aku jadi malas??

kenapa aku susah ingat (nak jd mcm scanner or photostat...sekali lalu terus lekat huhuh)

dan paling best.... kenapa dia lucky sangat? (identiti dirahsiakan)

part paling best....

 

sume aku jawab sendiri heheheh

ak malas sebab ak tak tahu bersyukur....

ak susah nak ingat sebab byak minum air ada semut plus scene2 tak sepatutnya dalam cite2 omputeh,korea dll

dia lucky sebab itu rezeki dia and dia anak yang bagus............ keredhaan ibu bapa adalah keredhaan ALLAH juga... sesiapa yang berbakti pada ibubapa, pasti ALLAH membalasnya...

ALHAMDULILLAH Ya Allah...............

aku baru nak mengeluh...

Aku baru saja nak mengeluh…

Tapi ader yg mngingatkan ak tp lebih tepat kpd semua org…

There are no reason to complain and whining…

Allah pn mengingatkan kita… mengeluh tu membuka pintu kepada syaitan mendekati kita..

Siapa kita untuk mengeluh?

Apa hak kita untuk mempersoalkan segalanya?

But now these tears of mine keep begging to be freed…

These tears of mine completely tired…

Yes…. Aku mmg suka nangis…. Aku boleh menangis mcm budak 3 tahun sambil memanggil ‘mama’…

Then few minutes aku akan rasa tenang setenangya…

My tears of mine are completely mine….

No one could argue why I am so easy to cry

Because that tears of mine is completely mine…

It is not a sin if we cry….

Thanks Allah giving many ways to relieve myself

Solat, al-quran, my mom, my family and my tears etc….

BIT By Bit

Bit by bit
A part of her gone
That part of her dying slowly
That part of her leaves her eventually
Because her own spinelessness
Her own extreme spinelessness
Her desire, her hope, her dream
Bit by bit
Are torn apart
Because of her own fragility
Again and again…. Day by day
She is still that old weak girl
The other parts of her paralyzed
Unable to move on
Keep holding to the same weak old girl
This paralyzed girl really wants to move on
Step forward to prove to the world
She can live
She can decide
She is brave
But
Not even a tiny hole she could see
In the darkness of her life
She is really seeking for her God’s forgiveness
For being so weak inside and outside
Silently whispering
“Please forgive all the sins I have done, Ya Allah”
“ no one knows and understand me like You did, Ya Allah”