BIT By Bit

Bit by bit
A part of her gone
That part of her dying slowly
That part of her leaves her eventually
Because her own spinelessness
Her own extreme spinelessness
Her desire, her hope, her dream
Bit by bit
Are torn apart
Because of her own fragility
Again and again…. Day by day
She is still that old weak girl
The other parts of her paralyzed
Unable to move on
Keep holding to the same weak old girl
This paralyzed girl really wants to move on
Step forward to prove to the world
She can live
She can decide
She is brave
But
Not even a tiny hole she could see
In the darkness of her life
She is really seeking for her God’s forgiveness
For being so weak inside and outside
Silently whispering
“Please forgive all the sins I have done, Ya Allah”
“ no one knows and understand me like You did, Ya Allah”