Rainbows in Sarawak/ Pelangi di Sarawak..

Inilah gambar2 pelangi yg ak amik kat sarawak sejak Ak mengajar kat SMK(A) SARATOK 11 bulan lepas....

Inilah salah satu kebahagiaan aku di sni...di Sarawak...mungkin org xfhm nape ak excited sgt dgn pelangi ni...

Inilah hakikatnya.....bukti yg Sarawak masih lg trpelihara......even di Tnh Merah pn ak ssh nk nmpak.....sbnrny byk lg pelangi yang ak nmpk tp xsmpt nk snap heheehehe

Inilah yg sekurang2ny hiburan ak heheheh

Raya oh raya..

my raya...Minggu Cuti raya dah habis.. . . . . memories live forever. ...Love My family too much

difficult situasi...............

aku cemburu...

aku sangat cemburu...

memandang sepi kejayaan orang lain...

sedangkan aku masih kaku beku di Benua ANtartika...

mengapa aku enggan mengorak langkahku...

mengapa aku begitu penakut...

ketidapastian ku...ketakutanku...memanipulasi pola gerakan usahaku...

tiada khabar indah yang mampu meninta kejayaanku......

FINdiNg mY DEsTInY..........

No onE thEiR faTE....THe dAnGerOuS cUrIosity brinG THe bAd LucK n Good LuCk

People keep visiting the fortune teller...just to investigate their own fate....

tilik tangan...tilik kaki...tilik muka..tilik nombor ekor .tilik2 and tilik....(syirik ni)

ni sume kadang2 keje org yg malas....yelah..mn taw kalu dpt bulan jatuh ke riba,ke peha la kot...ish2 ni  kes naya silap haribulan meninggal on the spot hahahaha

Takde bnda yang free zaman skg.....hrga brg sume dh naik...potensi kita aje yg kurang naiknya....
NAK SERIBU DAYA,TAKNAK SERIBU DALIH...ERMM MCM YG AKU NGAH WAT NE...DUK MENGANGGUR XHABIS2..BILA NTAH NAK KEJENYA...DUIT MAKIN CIPUT NE HUHUHHUHU

Aku truly mmg pemalu...tu la dalih yg ak slalu gna bila dh pikir nak g cr keje...malu beb huhuhuhu....ak nak try the best so ak dpt wat yg trbaik....allah xkan ubah nasib sesebuah umat jika umat itu xnak berusaha kan....twakal and doa mmg harus...tapi usaha mst ada...

contohnya....blaja tunggang motosikal...........aku beli sebijik motor, pandang2 hari2 tnpa try tunggang and xsuh org ajar....ari2 aku wat smyg hajat and doa ajer.....Agak2 ALLAH suka x tlg org pemals mcm aku..blh ke ak pndai tunggang mto tbe2......ye...mmg aku usaha dh dgn membeli..tapi ckup ke cmc tu jer.....

Sume ni sama la dgn usaha kita cr keredhaan Allah SWT.....kita sekadar smyg lima waktu...tu pn bacaan tunggang langgang...blh ke kita smpai ke syurgaNYA...hanya Allah yg tahu.............
Mmg doa senjata org mukmin, tapi A

This My Promise that i cant ever kept it....

Definitely everyone can make their promise...

So do I...

But definitely i will say it first...

This is a promise that i cant ever kept...

Still, for this moment...

I wanna say this promise loud...

This precious moment...

I wanna secuured it in my promise...

My happiness for this moment...

I wanna engraved it in my heart by promise...

Even it is my promise that i never can kept...

People may say I'm a HYPOCRITE...

Still

i wanna express this honest feeling in my promise...

So then,

In future...

I don't regret it so much...

For unable express my deep feelings...

My little promise

Wouldn't affects other...

Then,

Only I know

I wanna deeply say this promise

As this honest feeling still alive

Alive in MY tiny world...

Please don't even bother what i say

Cause soon or later

Everything will come to end

Thus as long as I have this

Please let me

Fall in love with you...

AND 

Make a promise

THAT

I will always love you

JUNG YUNHO

P/S: CURRENTLY OBSSED WITH TVXQ'S YUNHO..KEKEKEKE

please dont get hurt and hurt others...

under the bright sky

we live together

our relationship is already went WELL

but now

i keep worry about that person

i know

i dont deserved to intercept in 'that' person life

but still

i cant stop myself

from being worried

do i really worried?

or it is just jealousy

i don't know

really don't know

just hoping 'that' person doesn't gone too far

'that' person means so much for me

'that' person is a part of me

'that' person 

please...please...

dont get hurt by liking certain things too much

dont hurt other just bcoz liking certain things so much

thins we love the most

might be our worst enemy

The best ThInG

Penulis       :  Muhammad Abu Sauqi Banna

Penerbit     : Kemilau Publika

JUST BELIEVE ME...

TRY TO READ AND BUY THIS BOOK

TOTALLY AWESOME....

YOU WILL DEFINITELY MOVED BY THIS SPECIAL PERSON IN OUR LIFE..

LELAKI SUKA GUNA ALASAN IKUT SUNNAH NABI MUHAMMAD SAW HANYA 

BILA BERPOLIGAMI...

TAPI SEGALA PERBUATAN BAGINDA YANG MULIA TERHADAP ISTERI2 NYA..PRNAH MEREKA CUBA?

PERNAH LELAKI SKRG CUBA MENYAYANGI ISTERI DENGAN NIAT MAHU BERSAMA-SAMA KE SYURGA DI AKHIRAT NANTI..

PERNAH MEREKA MEMANDANG KE MATA ISTERI MEREKA DENGAN HARAPAN MEREKA AKN BERTEMU DI SYURGA SANA, LANTAS BERUSAHA MENCAPAI CITA2 ITU...

APPRECIATE THIS GREAT MAN WHO ONCE STRUGGLED FOR US..HIS UMMAH...

Did They Know They Have Hurt Others?

                      Trully hate it when people keep hurt each other even they love each other...

Deeper the love, The deeper scar left in heart...

                      That may be the reason why people always said...

"Dont hate too much,u might end love them back deeper..and dont love them too much bcoz they may turn as your biggest enemy"

                     How to reconcile? How to make up after a fight?

The answer is only your heart...as long as you are always forgiving..ALLAH will always love you...

dENGki Sesangat............

Aku mmg hantu 'pengdengki'


Dr kecik sampai gemok gedempol skrg...


Totally terible...Tapi naper susah nak ubah.......... hehehehe...


List of MY TERRIBLE 'P.H.D a.k.a Perangai Hasad Dengki'

1) sgt2 jeles org yg wat bnda2 baik.....esp mcm rajin solat sunat, bc quran, brsedekah, baik kat parents...last2 sbb dengki dgn org baik2 ne...i wanna try to do the same thing....so that i will get same rewards as them.... ptt truskn x plan ne? hehehe

2) extrovert, friendly n happy go lucky person... For me, this type of person are managing their life very well even there are some hard time too... could smile when your heart are in pain...make others smile even you are the who hurt so much...for me, they have some clean heart...think positively....Allah's gift for them

3) Active Blogger..kekekeke...i wondering how can they totally can manage their blog in their busy life....or i am just really teribble person get jealous with this...hehehehehe

Aku taknak Jadi Dewasa...

Kalu aku dh dewasa....

Aku akan khlgn something yg sgt brharga dlm hidup aku....

MY FANTASY WORLD....

Aku bnr2 xmau trima realiti dunia yg mnyakitkan...

Sebab mncuba dunia dewasa la...aku bnyak melakukan slh....mmg slh tu bnyak mngajar kita...

tapi knyataan sgt mnyakitkan....sangat menjengkelkan...

kalau org tya aku...sape ak plg bnci dlm dunia ni.....JWPNNYA ADLH DIRI AKU SNDRI...

fuhhhhhhhh.......(swipe...swipe...)

fuhh.... fuhh...

bnyaknye habuk...

malas btl cik mek ni.....

bkn ape...

too mNY THINGS TOO SAY

but dont know which one should be written first.......

few weeks ago...

just watching SECRET GARDEN....

totally absorbed by that story...

the ost song are the best...daebak....

miss it.....badly.....

Aku suka alam fantasi

alam fantasi ku

alam ciptaan aku sendiri

tentang bagaimana harus aku jalani hidup ini dan peristiwa-peristiwa penting yang penting

aku bahagia dengan alam fantasi aku

meskipun aku cuma bermimpi

tapi mimpi itu yang menjaga aku dari hanyut dengan keasyikan dunia

Namun usia tak pernah terlupa utk meningkat

Lalu,

ku rasakan ku harus tinggalkan mimpi itu

ternyata langkah ku salah

tersalah jalan yang ku pilih

dan tersilap menilai seorang

ku sangkakan dia yang kan bawa ku cahaya realiti dunia

ternyata hanya makhluk yang pentingka diri

insan yang berlagak mengetahui semuanya tentang dunia

tapi rupanya hanya penipu besar dunia

ku tertinggal dalam kegelapan

meskipun aku dalam cahaya

kegelapan itu sentiasa bersama aku

aku cuba kembali ke alam fantasi itu

namun

aku gagal

alam fantasi aku dicemari kejahatan realiti yang aku lakukan

aku sentiasa dibayangi dosa silam

yang membuat aku sudah putus harapan terhadap dunia realiti

bahkan, alam fantasiku turut membenci aku

aku benci diriku sendiri

mereka tidak tahu

Ya Allah, terimalah hambaMu yang lemah ini...tiada arah yang ku tuju melainkan padaMU

BENCIKAN DIRI

Aku yang bencikan diri sendiri

tak perlu sesiapa pun untuk memebenci diri ku

andainya ada

aku memahaminya

dan aku memaafkan

dan aku jua memohon maaf

kekhilafan diri ini teramat besar

Dan kini

sisa hidupku sebelum ditarik nyawa olehNya

adalah hukuman aku...

Aku yang bencikan diri sendiri

Takkan mungkin akan bahagia...

Aku harus redha

aku harus tabah...

Ya Allah, ampunkan dirir hambaMu yang lemah ini....

aku benar- benar hambaMu yang lemah............................

Aku Tidak Akan Pernah Berhenti Mencintai Kamu.....

Just watching the las t episode of Cinta Dan Anugerah

Part ini paling best bagi aku... hehehe... citer ne aku tgk skip2 ajer..

malas kok mau nengok sumenya...244 episode bukan 

sedikit kok...penat bangat saya nnti.. hehehe tertiru cara cakap pula

Tapi ak agak sangsi dgn kata2 yang diluahkan oleh watak Reza...

"Aku Tidak Akan Pernah Berhenti Mencintai Kamu....."

Mungkin ke cinta sesama manusia begini wujud...

mungkin ada tapi Expression of the Love yang makin kurang..

Bila usia semakin meningkat....

semua kemanisan di awal percintaan..

tak pulak meningkat2....

adakah ini lumrah or manusia sendiri yang pilih jalan ini...

Hanya seorang saja idola yang aku kagum dalam bab percintaan...

Nabi Muhammmad S.A.W..

Percintaan Dengan Maha Pencipta, ALLAH S.W.T

Percintaan dengan Isteri2nya...

Percintaan terhadap umatnya..

Kasih sayang DAN cinta baginda benar2 tak pernah berhenti...

Baginda tidak pernah mengabaikan isteri2nya...

kerna membahagiakan isteri adalah tanggungjawab suami..

melaksanakan tanggungjawab terhadap isteri pun dikira ibadat...

Apa yang dikisah oleh Aisyah A.S tentang peribadi Baginda...

cukup mengharukan hati...

betapa romantisnya baginda..

betapa indahnya baginda sebagai seorang suami...

FEW THINGS THAT ANNOYED ME LATELY

IT IS NOT EASY TO SATISFY EVERYONE..BUT IT WILL BE MORE COMPLICATED WHEN WE OURSELVES DO NOT SATISFY WHAT WE HAVE DONE BEFORE..IT IS YOUR OWN WORK...WHY YOU CANT BE SATISFIED AND ACCEPT THAT IS YOU?

IT IS SIMPLE BECAUSE YOU DO NOT DID IT WELL. AND THE RESULT REALLY DISSAPOINTING..SO WHO WILL BE BLAMED? PEOPLE TENDS TO ASK ALLAH WHY THEY HAVE TO FACE THIS AND THIS?

BUT, THEY DO NOT A SECOND THINK WHAT ARE THEIR FAULT... ALLAH TEST US WHAT WE ABLE TO BEAR OR ALLAH WANTS SHOW US THE TRUTH... I AM TALKING ABOUT MYSELF.. BEFORE THIS, I MIGHT BE NOT SPEAK UP MY THOUGHT BUT I KEEP SILENTLY COMMENTING OTHER PEOPLE.... IN THE END, ALLAH SHOWS ME THW TRUTH... ONE DAY, AT A BUS STAND, THERE WERE FEW SMALL KIDS SELLING WHILE BEGGING.... I SILENLT IN MY HEART... HOW CRUEL THEIR PARENTS FOR NOT SEND THEM TO SCHOOL... WHEN THEY COME NEAR MY FRIEND,MY FRIEND WANTED TO GIVE MONEY... THEY CHILD SO IMPATIENT AND KEEP LOOKING TO MY FRIEND'S PURSE... I FELT SO IRRITATING WITH HER ACT.... I STARTED THINK WHY YOU SHOULD BEG? THERE ARE MANY WORK TO DO...YOU'RE HEALTHY AT LEAST....THAT WERE MY THOUGHT AT THAT TIME...

FEW HOURS LATER.. IWENT TO MUSOLLA TO PRAY, I PUT MY BAG AT THE BACK...WHILE PRAYING I HEARD LIKE A BAG WAS OPENED...BUT I IGNORED IT BUT I DID FEEL UNEASY...I STOPPED MY PRAYER AND CHECK MY BAG...MY PURSE WAS GONE... THE TWO WOMEN THAT COME IN AFTER ME ALREADY GONE..I BELIEVED IT WERE THEM BECAUSE THERE ARE NO OTHER EXCEPT THEM...OTHER WOMEN WERE PRAYED AND THEY STAND NEXT TO ME.... I CRIED HEAVILY...ONE YOUNG LADY THERE COME TO ME AND TRIED TO CALM ME DOWN... SHE ALSO USED TO BE VICTIM THERE WHILE SHE STILL STUDENT NEARBY... SHE GAVE ME TEN RINGGIT..I REFUSED AND SHE KEPT INSISTED IT... I THANKFULLY ACCEPTED IT FINALLY... SUDDENLY I REMMEBERED THE CHILD BEGGAR... NOW I AM THE BEGGAR TOO...

I REALISED THIS IS WHAT ALLAH WANT TO SHOW ME... NOT EVERYONE IS LUCKY TO HAVE COMFATABLE LIFE... AS THE ONE WHO IS LUCKY....HELP OTHER AND STOP SAY BAD THING TO OTHER EVEN SILENTLY.. ONLY ALLAH IS ALMIGHTY... HE KNOW WHAT WE ARE DOING, WHAT WE ABLE TO DO AND WHAT WE HAVE DONE

ALWAYS ASK FOR ALLAH'S FORGIVENESS...

Pari-pari malam

'today might be not my bright day but it is still my lovely day'

~~~my own quote heheheh~~~

*termenung kejap...cr idea* ah haa actually i am intend to write about:

 

"PLEASE STOP COMPARING YOURSELF WITH OTHER BUT IT DOESNT MEAN U JUST NEED TO RELAX WHILE OTHERS MOVE ON"

 

al kisahnya... smlm aku stay up till 1 am for studying...why???

because i am having test this morning...errmmm goood student right hehehehe

di kala teman berjinak tidur... ak brtukar mnjadi pari-pari malam....tekun mendaki anak tangga kejayaan (kejayaan la sgt huhhu)

tapi sebenarya i am a loser....yelah bebe study last minute kot.... mula la pkr bukan...pndg kanan kiri...

walaupn aku menjadi pari-pari mlm itu....tapi ak bkn ader kuasa sakti yg blh buat ak pandai hehehe

why aku gelar diri pari-pari malam dan entri ini pn tajuk macam tu??

 

sebabnya.... aku punya sukalah heheheh

mengarut-marut je aku ne

 

masa aku study malam tu...banyak aku fikir...

kenapa aku jadi malas??

kenapa aku susah ingat (nak jd mcm scanner or photostat...sekali lalu terus lekat huhuh)

dan paling best.... kenapa dia lucky sangat? (identiti dirahsiakan)

part paling best....

 

sume aku jawab sendiri heheheh

ak malas sebab ak tak tahu bersyukur....

ak susah nak ingat sebab byak minum air ada semut plus scene2 tak sepatutnya dalam cite2 omputeh,korea dll

dia lucky sebab itu rezeki dia and dia anak yang bagus............ keredhaan ibu bapa adalah keredhaan ALLAH juga... sesiapa yang berbakti pada ibubapa, pasti ALLAH membalasnya...

ALHAMDULILLAH Ya Allah...............

aku baru nak mengeluh...

Aku baru saja nak mengeluh…

Tapi ader yg mngingatkan ak tp lebih tepat kpd semua org…

There are no reason to complain and whining…

Allah pn mengingatkan kita… mengeluh tu membuka pintu kepada syaitan mendekati kita..

Siapa kita untuk mengeluh?

Apa hak kita untuk mempersoalkan segalanya?

But now these tears of mine keep begging to be freed…

These tears of mine completely tired…

Yes…. Aku mmg suka nangis…. Aku boleh menangis mcm budak 3 tahun sambil memanggil ‘mama’…

Then few minutes aku akan rasa tenang setenangya…

My tears of mine are completely mine….

No one could argue why I am so easy to cry

Because that tears of mine is completely mine…

It is not a sin if we cry….

Thanks Allah giving many ways to relieve myself

Solat, al-quran, my mom, my family and my tears etc….

BIT By Bit

Bit by bit
A part of her gone
That part of her dying slowly
That part of her leaves her eventually
Because her own spinelessness
Her own extreme spinelessness
Her desire, her hope, her dream
Bit by bit
Are torn apart
Because of her own fragility
Again and again…. Day by day
She is still that old weak girl
The other parts of her paralyzed
Unable to move on
Keep holding to the same weak old girl
This paralyzed girl really wants to move on
Step forward to prove to the world
She can live
She can decide
She is brave
But
Not even a tiny hole she could see
In the darkness of her life
She is really seeking for her God’s forgiveness
For being so weak inside and outside
Silently whispering
“Please forgive all the sins I have done, Ya Allah”
“ no one knows and understand me like You did, Ya Allah”

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i love do the quizzes in this website

menakutkan diri sendiri................

recently few friends of mine keeps talking about the scary things.............

definitely i quite influenced by that stories.....but i am grateful to Allah for saving me from all the miserable things...He knows what the best for me...

But sometimes i can't stop from feel scared and thinking nonsense...
but one thing i know.... i believe Allah know me so well